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..:●¦ Sazunaki ¦●:..Attack life, it's going to kill you anyway. 10/18/2009 Hide and Seek6/26/2009 Life is a Gift There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She
hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for
her. She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see the world, I will
marry you.'One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the
bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her
boyfriend.. He asked her, 'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?' The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind.. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected that.. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him. Her boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine.' This is how the human brain often works when our status changes. Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always by their side in the most painful situations. Life Is a Gift Today... Before you say an unkind word... Think of someone who can't speak. Before you complain about the taste of your food... Think of someone who has nothing to eat. Before you complain about your husband or wife... Think of someone who's crying out to GOD for a companion. Today... Before you complain about life... Think of someone who died too early on this earth.. Before you complain about your children... Think of someone who desires children but they're barren. Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or sweep... Think of the people who are living in the streets. Before whining about the distance you drive... Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet. And when you are tired and complain about your job... Think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job. But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another... Remember that not one of us is without sin. And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down... Put a smile on your face and think: you're alive and still around.. 1/27/2009 Playmate vs Soulmate....Which one? In our quest for happiness we must be sure that we don't settle for a Playmate when God has a Soul mate waiting for us. Sometimes this is a hard distinction to make. Playmates are tricky. They are so much fun to be with that even the smartest of us will be fooled into thinking this has to be our Soul mate. Worse yet too many of us attempt to make a Soul mate out of a Playmate. The danger of this is that later, after years of playing we will meet our Soul mate, but it may be too late. We may have already made a Life mate of our Playmate and created life-long bonds (emotional, children, etc.). Or we may have been hurt from playing so hard that we are in no shape ourselves to be anyone's anything. How can we distinguish between the One, and just another one? First, we must be open with ourselves about who we really are and what our soul yearns for. Only you and God know what is truly in your heart and mind. Only you know what will make you truly happy and whole. In order to find your Soul mate you have to know you, first. You must be willing to listen to that inner voice. And is that voice telling you that the nerdy person you enjoy talking and sharing your thoughts with, could be him? What about that friend who is always willing to go the extra mile for you when no one else will. Oh no! He's too short or too tall, balding or too hairy, and on and on Just too ordinary looking for me! Then there's that girl who makes you feel so special when you're around her, but she doesn't match that ideal you have conjured in your head. She's too tall, not slender enough, not light or dark enough, not shapely enough, not attractive enough, and on and on. She just couldn't be for me! So what if he or she doesn't look like Shemar Moore or Vivica Fox. Is he or she going to treat you like the jewel that you are? Not only that, his or her soul and yours will commune in ways you never imagined possible! In order to heed that voice, we have to put on the back burner our own superficial thinking. Could it be that your inner desire is for a truly genuine person with a good heart? If you enjoy playing, stay on the playground. There are plenty of Playmates out there to occupy your time. But don't spend too much time playing or you may play your life away. Eventually the playing loses it appeal and your soul begins to crave a deeper, more meaningful connection. Your soul begins to crave your Soul mate. Never make someone a priority when all you are to them is an option... 1/17/2009 Ramble baby ive been thinking lately so much about you everything about you, i like it i love it kissing you in public - thinking nothing of it roses by the dozen, and taking on the phone baby youre so sexy so lovely every time i see you my feelings get deeper i need you in my life.  hehe i love my snowman candy.. can you believe i made it? haha thought not. 1/15/2009 Futures So here I am once again looking into the sky The clouds move slowly, by and by The scene is hypnotizing I can not lie I just wish I could share this moment with someone by my side. I don’t know how I got here, or how long it has been I don’t know how I will get out, or for that matter, get in Every thing in this world seems so grim I don’t know where it ends or where it possibly begins. The sky seem different here day by day The clouds seem to move this and that way I don’t remember sleeping, it seems I’m always awake Never do I grow tired of this hypnotizing gaze. So here I am once again looking into the sky The clouds move slowly, by and by The scene is hypnotizing I can not lie I just wish I could share this moment with someone by my side… Whats the story morning glory? So its about 6:30 and im up early as usual cooking brunch and prepping dinner for the family later in the night.. and today im making a spanish paella and a bouillabaisse (the latter for dinner). Normally i would be elated to eat it all, but you see i am on a diet of sorts and the regular foods i love to eat cannot be eaten due to the fact that my tummy is so gosh darn huge! Its squishy and jiggly and though i would be happy to have a belly full of jelly i have recently craved to be fit. Going to the gym everyday has really been a pain but hopefully ill obtain the figure ive always wanted. But alas until then i shall continue to stare at the food im cooking and pretend that im dieting... even though im really stealing a few nibbles here and there. BAHH who am i kidding, i ate the whole pan of food.. looks like somethings never change =P   1/5/2009 WinterI really want to go skating... Is there someone out there willing to go with me? Everyone is all for it if its snowboarding or skiing.. But what about the ice? Skating under snow fall is the best, Especially the feeling of snow landing on my pig nose. And hot chocolate to warm my tummy up after its done. Please someone save me from a skate-less winter. xo. Porkle. 1/3/2009 The GoldfishSo one day, all the animals of the animal kingdom gathered to prove who had the best love of all. The lions said, well we have the best love because we are like kings and queens. The dolphins said, no we do because we have the most fun playing around. The monkeys, disagreed arguing we are the most like humans so we have the closest thing to love. The elephants, trumpeted the loudest over all the chatter saying we have the BIGGEST love. The snails, squirmed and whispered well we have the slowest love. The cheetahs, purred saying well we are all about the CHASE. Finally, the goldfish bloop blooped. And said smiling to each other. Well, with all this going on. No one will ever know, that everytime I bloop, I am actually blowing a kiss thinking of you. AWW.  1/2/2009 New YearsHAPPY FUCKING 2009 good riddance to the old year and hooray for the new. I got a brand new attitude and i'm going to wear it all year, &if you don't like it kiss my ass. Much love, Super Bitch♥ 11/16/2008 To My Friends1. You are not alone. There is always someone by your side no matter what. If anything else fails, you’ve got me. 2. Like physics, everything returns to its normal state. Even though you went through a rough time, everything will be okay &will work out just fine, in one way or another. 3. Everything happens for a reason. Did it ever happen to you where you don't want to do something but you do it anyways and it turned out lot better than you thought? There must be a reason behind everything. 4. With great commitment comes great rewards. If you work your ass off for something, regardless of the process. You will certainly be rewarded in the end. 5. Great things happen when you least expect it. So stop trying to impress other people. Be yourself, and be who you really are. Don’t let others tell you what to think, say, act. It is totally okay if you say ‘No, that is stupid, I am not gonna do it” 6. Cry a little. It is perfectly normal to cry sometimes. Believe me, you will feel a lot better afterward. Cry a little, then move on. Don’t let one thing stop you from living life. 7. Nobody is perfect. Face it, there is always someone better than you. This also means that you are better than other people. The truth is, someone will like you just the way you are. 8. Sometimes, trust strangers. Sounds a little bit weird, but sometimes when you trust people you barely know, they have the simplest answers to your questions. They are very good listeners, and they see the simplest way to see things. If none of your best friends seem to help you at all, seek someone else and talk to them. They will understand it better. 9. Simplicity matters. When you smile, talk to somebody, give somebody a hug, it may seem simple and normal to you, but it may mean a whole lot to them. A simple smile or hug can change the course of their days, weeks, or even make a great impact on the rest of their lives. 10. Life is good. Breathe. Take a look around where you are at right now, look at the things you have, look at the friends you've got, think about the good times you have had. There are millions of people out there who cannot afford a life like that. Breathe again, and smile. There is a rainbow after every rainstorm.  11/11/2008 ABCD WomanThe A-Woman I am the A-Woman. I hold the toughest position I am hard enough to maintain I am the ultimate keeper The main squeeze The fine catch, so to speak I’m that girl He spends most of his time with The one that was worthy enough to meet his boys (Sometimes the one he complains about the most) The one he calls “my girl” to his friends I constantly empower his mind I’m the chaperon, chauffeur, loan lender, cheerleader and punching bag All at the same time To some, His so called wifey The B-Woman The simple kind of girl With simple plans She’s the best friend, so to speak He says “she is just like a sister to me” She never ridicules him for the smoking, drinking Fornication or any other faults of his She is good, clean and wholesome Sad to say, A wannabe No more, no less She’s the girl he secretly wants to get with She is the one to have him if she just said the word. The B-woman knows better She made sure no one became aware of it She knew what was best for everyone And doing so, she keeps shut She’s the b-girl after all The C-Woman She’s that girl your mother warned you about She’s everything a Sagittarius is described to be She is the ex who could have, should have and would have She is the one who understood him best The one who did all those things I won’t do She sticks around just in case we don’t work out She is the one he will not refuse if she comes onto him She is the one he caresses and embraces But won’t go all the way with The one he would give endearment to if it wasn’t for me This chick is all she could make up to be The D-Woman Finally, you have the D woman You may have seen her at the club, At a chaotic party Maybe even on the curb taking in a toke She is the real deal He had spoken to her a few times Should I be worried? She is far from the idea of perfect daughter Definitely not someone you would introduce to your mom Even though she makes it seem like Dios embodied the word goddess in disguise She spells disapproval written all over her She is after all, The talk of the male town The ultimate fling Everyone and anyone’s rebound. She’s the real dillio Whose number, I found in his pocket Sealed on a gloss-kissed paper The night he went out with his boys The same night he called To tell me just enough To cover the tracks he left So he can convince himself That he is being honest with me Therefore I will have no reason to doubt He says “trust me, I’m not like most men, give me another chance” “I’m not like any other guy out there…” At the back of my mind, I chuckle. His guard was down, He let his fool rush in, He committed to something he was not ready for… And he failed to realize that I am B, C and D woman To someone else. 10/25/2008 Dirty Icecream We've only been on one date, baby Yeah, and it was fun 'til you started acting crazy I don't really find it very cute or sexy When you call or incessantly, text me It's not in decision, just my female intuition Telling me you can't be calling me like that. 8/30/2008 Les Petits Plaisirs
After watching Le Fabuleaux destin d'Amelie Poulain (which i think
its a great movie!!!), i began to think about the little things in life
we should enjoy, and the ones we do enjoy but just don't pay any attention to.
 In the movie, there are little meaningless details which make the movie so much more spontaneous and enjoyable. Like, how many people are having an orgasm right now? (15), whats the temperature in le sacre coeur? (24 C), whats the humidity? (70%) and the atmospheric pressure? (990 millibars). Amelie indulges herself with sneaking her hands into the bean sac, breaking the top of the creme brulee, turning around at the movie theater to see people's faces, noticing the small details, and skipping stones in the river. So i wondered, what are my simple pleasures in life? so here a list of them: - coin collecting - talking about food - trying new things - going on adventures - using sharpened pencils  - blowing bubbles - eating the sides of a sandwich first - picking up plastic garbage from the lake - leaving the lucky charm marshmallows to eat last - getting into a building after being outside in the snow  - skipping rocks in the river - staring at the stars in the sky - leaving footprints in the sand - feeling the warm bed covers on my skin - watching vanilla ice cream melt off apple pie  - drawing pigs - cracking creme brulee's top - using fruity shampoo on my hair - eating the soft part of the pizza crust - drinking hot chocolate during Christmas  - popping bubble wrap - falling asleep on the phone - receiving emails from friends - spraying whipped cream on my mouth - signing in on msn and knowing that he is online  - having super hot showers - laying down on after a long day - looking out the window on a rainy day - the feeling of snowflakes on the tip of my nose - blasting the music and dancing in my underwear  - watching fireworks - watching cartoons on a shitty day - sleeping with the sound of the rain - going into a jazccuzi on a freeing day - smelling the outsides of a chocolate store or bakery  - daydreaming - going on the swings - opening a jar by myself - laughing at stupid things - saving a different coloured Skittle for the end  - and capturing them all with my camera What are YOUR simple pleasures?8/19/2008 Mon Amour Est Comme La LuneMon Amour Est Comme La Lune Juillet 10, 2008 Mon amour est comme la lune Il change chaque jour Aujourd'hui, je t'aime tout Demain, je t'aime à moitié Le jour suivant, je t' aime rien Et le cycle se répéte.  8/12/2008 7 things - M. Cyrus I probably shouldn’t say this, but at times I get so scared when I
think about the previous relationship we shared. It was awesome, but we
lost it. It's not possible for me not to care. And now we’re standing
in the rain, but nothing's ever going to change until you hear the 7
things I hate about you. It’s awkward and silent as I wait for you to say. But what I need to hear now is your sincere apology. When you mean it, I’ll believe it. If you text it, I’ll delete it. Let’s be clear, I’m not coming back. You’re taking 7 steps here. The 7 things I hate about you... You're vain, your games, you’re insecure. You love me and you like her. You make me laugh, you make me cry. I don’t know which side to buy. Your friends, they're jerks. When you act like them, just know it hurts. I want to be with the one I know. And the 7th thing, I hate the most that you do, you made me love you. And compared to all the great things that would take too long to write, I probably should mention The 7 that I like... The 7 things I like about you... Your hair, your eyes, your old jeans. When we kiss I'm hypnotized. You make me laugh, you make me cry, but I guess that’s both I’ll have to buy. Your hands in mine. When we’re intertwined. Everything’s alright. I want to be with the one I know. And the 7th thing I like the most that you do... You still make me love you.  8/7/2008 √3the square root of 3 by david feinberg i’m sure that i will always be  Absolutely in LoveWhen i close my eyes i imagined you here close to my skin, close to my heart. You lay there, awakened by the melody of my voice, engaged by the sweet smell of my gum. You watch me as you make me laugh I shed tears of joy as i embrace every moment every kiss, every look. But as soon as i open my eyes, you disappear, left in my memory left in my heart. For silence, are the only words it speaks to you. I reach out to you but you cannot see, blinded by what may lay beneath the skin of another woman, you cannot feel that my heart cries for you, it yearns for your smile. I closed my eyes again, because i missed you, i saw you, holding my hand against your heart resting your head on my chest, listening to my heart cry. You rescued me from the pain and made my heart smile. You caressed it with your soul you kissed it with your eyes. I imagined this one night closed my eyes tight and made a wish; i wished for you, i wished you would wish for me to. I wished that when i opened my eyes it would be really you who would rescue my heart, and flatter my soul. I opened my eyes i looked to the sky i saw a start twinkle and it made my heart fly i knew my wish was heard and the twinkle told me why. How could i ever doubt wishing on a start? So i put a smile on my face and closed my eyes tight hoping that tomorrow you would appear in my sight. The night sky, colored blue turned to a shimmery white, as the sun pierced through the branches of the trees. I looked to the sky and the star was gone imagining it flew to surrender my wish. So i smiled again. The day passed as i worried away my was still undone. I impatiently waited but my heart grew weary, it began to weep as weeks past by slowly. So i closed my eyes and imagined you again my memory still fond of your beautiful skin. I hoped no more that my wish would come true so every time i miss you i just close my eyes peacefully and hold you in my heart.  ReminderIf man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that is not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve, then hell no, you can't be "friends." A friend would not mistreat a friend. Don't settle; if you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself later on for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in the relationship is you. Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a man treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything; he might use it against you later. You cannot change a man's behavior; change comes from within. Don't ever make him feel like he is more important than you are. Even if he has more education or a better job. He is a man, nothing more, nothing less. Never let a man define who you are. Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you allow him to treat you. You should not be the one doing all of the bending. Compromise is a two way street. You need time to heal between relationships. There is nothing cute about baggage! Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship. (I can't stress that enough) You should never look for someone to complete you. A relationship consists of two wholesome individuals. Look for someone complimentary. Not supplementary. Dating is fun even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. AND never fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you want.  Women of LoveThese are the most extraordinary women in the world, and they do not go to bed at 11 p.m. when they dance, they dance with you when they sing, it is the motherhood of half the world, and when they go walking, they have an affair with sunlight; these are the women who hold the faces of men in the palm of their hands. these are the women men go back to, because they do not come easy and they do not come hard. these women are poetry. they arrange for their sons and daughters to bask in the suns glow, because the sun is a beautiful thing to sit under and to love the air is to want to fill it with lovers. These women do not understand words like would, likely, depending -- those are english words and they have no place in the mouths of people, those are words are made up for the language of thought, that have forgotten to serve the language of lovers. those words are in a manual at the bottom of the ocean, where strange fish gnaw upon them, uncomprehending fish that mouth the strange words like relationship, perhaps, except, and attachment. the most extraordinary women in the world, above all are sunning on beaches where when they sigh, trees far off are heard breathing in the loveliest towns in the world.  Pier Giorgio Di Cicco BreakdownYou called yesterday to basically say That you care for me, But that you're just not in love Immediately I pretended To be feeling similarly And led you to believe it was okay To just walk away from the one thing That's unyielding and sacred to me Well I guess I'm trying to be Nonchalant about it And I'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind Underneath a disguise of a smile Gradually I'm dying inside Friends ask me how I feel And I lie convincingly Cause I don't want to reveal The fact that I'm suffering So I wear my disguise Till I go home at night And turn down all the lights And then I break down and cry So what do you do When somebody you're so devoted to Suddenly just stops loving you And it seems they haven't got a clue Of the pain that rejection is putting you through Do you cling to your pride And sing "I will survive" Do you lash out and say "How dare you leave this way?" Or do you hold on in vain as they just slip away  if you can take the heart break... 2/15/2008 Bound to happen. I used to know you like the back of my hand Until today you held your place Now you're shifting like the sand Your chest would heave with pride if I were spoken of 'Till tonight I never knew the difference between comfort and love Although you're sleeping right next to me Well, it feels like you are wide awake in a distant dream leading a life that is finally free of these endless nights and countless fights that turn us into who we hate to be This is so difficult for the both of us I know we tried so hard, there's just no hope for us Well it's more than a shame that we lost to this game All my walking, talking, sleeping, breathing - nothing will ever be the same I used to hold you like it's all that I had Now begins the falling out, we are like a passing fad Your mouth would crack a smile if I were spoken of 'Till tonight you never thought you'd lose this epic battle with love Although you're sleeping right next to me Well, it feels like you are wide awake in a distant dream leading a life that is finally free of these endless nights and countless fights that turn us into who we hate to be And this is so difficult for the both of us I know we tried so hard, there's just no hope for us Well it's more than a shame that we lost to this game All my walking, talking, sleeping, breathing - nothing will ever be the same For what it's worth, I've always admired you I always thought that we could make it through Now look what time can do It took our masterpiece we built and broke it in two I always believed in you I always loved you And this is so difficult for the both of us I know we tried so hard, there's just no hope for us Well it's more than a shame that we lost to this game All my walking, talking, sleeping, breathing - nothing will ever be the same  |
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